February 24th 2021

Today I think I fell in love with the Sun.

How can a vampire be in love with their enemy?

It's contradictory.

I'm scared of what I foresee.

Ways that could be a possibility that would separate my love from me.

For so long the Sun has been stabbing at me.

Taking all my life's energy and today I fell in love with my enemy.

What the fuck is wrong with me?

I'm so scared of inching into it's burning rays from Hell.

I know of it's medicine my body needs but I'm scared of making the wrong choices like before when I fell so willingly.

My head says no.

My body says yes.

Why is my intuition fucking with me in this moment of need?

I'm scared spirit guide.

Please help me.

Days have already gone by.

All I think is why.

Why do I fall so willingly?

I already don't like how I feel inside.

But I go blind by the love of it's burning rays from Hell upon me.